dammit

Somehow, love drives people, be it towards god, people or things we do.
Just a matter of what I want to do with it.
I cant decide what.
Dammit.

Prangai Budak Gemok

So, yesterday, Farhan, Sheilah, Nura, Huda, Eecar and I went to JB. There's alot to story but I shall sum up the things we did.

First, meet up at Kranji at like around 830? Boarded the bus blah2. We were too early cos the shops havent really opened up yet so we went to Nura's house first. Btw, thanks Nura's mom for the transport! Drink milo, eat nuggets epok2 and kuihs. Pretty nice environment, I'ld wander around even more if we were to stay there the whole day.

Then her mom gotta go work so she sent us to Jusco. Buy movie tix, go eat, then watch movie. Jangan Pandang Belakang Congkak 2. Gerek beb crite! Then eat ice cream at Baskin Robbins. Went to buy sushi and ate somemore. Bought Dunkin Donuts for our desert later on. After that, we made our way to Stulang Laut to have seafood. The food at Sayam was nice! Ate our heart out order and order refill and stuffs and its still cheap cheap! Then Nura's mom fetched us to the terminal and we chao.

Sat near Kranji MRT to finish up the donuts and talk2 somemore. I must say, I really enjoyed myself. Learnt a couple of stuffs there. Kindda of the short getaway that I needed (even though I was hoping for a two days trip. lol!) Next up! Desaru or Melaka or Genting either one ah. :)

More pics here.

F is for Forget

So, I finally did an "RnB goes acoustic" cover with the help of Alyfe! Not the best though to be honest. I still have to raise up my capabilities even more.

Got to see the modules that I'm taking. I've got to say, I'm pretty stunned by the modules' names. Haven't get to see the timetable yet. Guess I'm delayed from future planning again.

Gotta major video in mind to be carried out OMG so little time! Wanna record my solo tracks so I wouldn't forget cos I've got STM but I don't have that much time yet! Wanna collab with the other guys to venture into other genres but still, TIME!

Left with one week of holidays, I intend to clear up the mess in my room, have a headstart on school, correct my body clock, record some videos, my original tracks and get myself excited to start design and photography again. Not forgetting, CONTROL NOT OVERSPEND!

Lets go!

This video only make me want to own a fixie more and moreee. You know, the idea of assembling something together, maintaining it, accessories it and using it for reasons unknown. Oh what fun! HAHAHA. But I've yet to invest on the other things, things that I've already own.

BTW, something that we've all been waiting for will be uploaded on FB soon! I'm not sure whether it will be on Thursday or Friday so just keep a look out. (and also I will have to depend on the person's approval to upload. ahah)

PLUS some ideas are starting to rest on me for some intended videos. Will update if something really happened.

Plague

I've been itching to say something here but its as if anybody would be bothered. But nevertheless, I hope this would be a readable post to the majority of you readers out there (cos I might go on and say things the way that most people wouldn't understand unless they picture it properly.) I'm gonna spurt out everything that's on my mind so bear with me ok? (:

Firstly, I'm frustrated with the feeling that I'm wasting my time. Why do I feel so? I take every single event be it to me or to anyone else for that matter an experience. I believe that every second, something new is being introduced to my brain both with concious or sub-conscious state. But I'm starting to feel that I'm just lying to myself. I'm having a laugh with my mates but at the back of my mind, there's this little voice telling me that I should be doing something else. But I don't want to cause it's just the thing that kept me going.

Secondly, when I listen to the song above, it reminds me of the times where I was more.. I don't know, "alive?" with more self-awareness, confidence and determination. This is only one of the songs amongst a few others by the way. To be honest, deep inside, I feel scared, like I could tremble any time if I were help it. What am I scared about actually? I'm not quite sure myself but I'm guessing it could be time and my future. I'm afraid of not being able to achieve anything. I somehow feel empty and I can't even bring myself to think about the reason why. It's as though I'm not doing anything to keep myself up in an ideal state. But I know I am! Yes! But there is this tiny tint of anger which could cause depression which I'd say fuck to that.

Don't get me wrong though. It's not as if I'm down with depression or anything. It's more of "everybody has their own ups and downs" only that I have these thoughts/feelings from time to time. I found my aim in life, motives and intentions but have yet to get started on it. But then again, maybe I will have to think about other stuffs first before I get to the current points. Just maybe.

Then again, am I sure these are the reasons I that made me feel useless right now? What's up mate seriously??