I'm taking control.

"Wake up. Stop doing all those nonsense and get on with better things!" I told myself from time to time. And tonight, it seem to be the last of it. Its no more excuses for now. Or is it? Not because that I'm naive, but I cant keep my words even to myself. I've got a personal problem, one which dealt with one's own self. Wait no, I don't. But then again, I do.

I'm so bathed in regret right now that I'm starting to wonder how worthy am I. I've told myself from the end of every mistake that I've made up my mind to change for the better. Instead, mistakes kept coming back with no difficulties at all. Mistakes that is only mine to make. Mistakes that wont be the ones to make you feel great.

Like a car of hope cruising at top speed with its driver seated with delight ending up in a stop of less than one second by means of crashing onto a great wall, so great that every inch of the car hits the wall. Sometimes, I'd think that we are the devils, but that's what the devil would want us to think. Its a world of control. Both concious and subconsciously.

And guess what? Take note of today's date and no more "fuck it" this time. I'm taking control.

huh? what is school?

A friend of mine asked me about uni admission. We shared our gpa, then i thought about the other people regarding thier gpa as well.I think i better get really serious, control myself, and really aim to get the top position in class. SAHLAN + TOP POST = AM I DREAMING?! not to compete, but to pull grades up. get matured in this sense, really really work on it. wow. oh wow?

raye raye raye!

this was just the eve of raya. LOL. just now we played soccer with 7/+ agaisnt 7/+. I dont know why must i include that but hey, i think its been quite some time since we last played street soccer with that many people at one time. Now awaiting our outing, which will include more picture and hopefully vids. cheers!

feel good

meeting cousins, relatives, grandparents etc. its great. while learning about the family tree, their little history, who's who and stuffs.

but still, all i could remember were faces, not names. lol sadded for a while.

hehehe

i like!

lagu kt tepi x pyh tegor ey. haha

thinking

i was thinking if my band could play this kindda genre without any difficulties or atleast play it with interest.

something that includes post punk and dance rock. that'll be nice, IF we can do it. lol

ctrl a + delete

lan, you better wake up your bloody ideas even though you think you dont have any
because you are probably deluded if you think so.

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okay now that i've diverted my attention to alot of other things, i'ld like to point out that i just wanna sit back, relax, and enjoy whatever that comes around. thats all, with no strings attached to anything or anyone whatsoever. no, its not about being lazy. its about the things that really matters. needs not wants. after all, because i know chasing worldly wants wont satisfy. nights <3

The reason why i dont watch television.

Do watch the whole video. You see, the media is trying to control us in every sense. Theres more to that. Click here and watch the whole series from episode 1. Seriously, theres alot of thing to understand about the current events. No wonder SP makes its student go through "critical reasoning skills" module.

in the midst of the yawning

bus stands by ~sahlansahlan on deviantART

sigh.. *my current phone's camera is damm bloody useless*. the picture above is taken with my old phone, k800i, and its clear even without editing. now, i can only depend on my film camera if i wanna take a picture. which is equals to $. and at times, an extra space consumption in my bag. im feeling wierd now because raya is only next week(right???), im still experiencing frequent headaches, i wanna help out my mum in making the kuehs but im pretty lazy to get started on it. im supposed to clean the windows today but no, instead doing something else. ok should be doing something now. byebye

s k a t e b o a r d i n g

ever since i was into skateboarding,
i always had this fascination towards the whole thing,
how simple the brand logos looked like,
how vibrant and creative the board designs are,
how beautiful each skate shoes are,
the colour and design combination of the trucks and hardwares,
and of course, what tops it all is how swift pro skaters are.

i had always wanted to try designing a deck, like the ones with the complicated designs you see at the stores. for shoes? i had sketched that during my secondary school days but i lost the sketches. heh.. but im not up to that standard yet. well atleast for now. i'll do my research (:

pimp ma blog?

http://jackroversfc.blogspot.com

not a major edit tho but atleast it looks nicer, to me atleast. hahah. maybe im just bored of the old one or the old one is really boring. hahahahaha. to me it looks more like a band or label site rather than a soccer one. HOHO. is it just me or the way i phrase things here is wierd? oh ya incase some of you are alittle blur like some of the jacks themselves, when you click the link, "click" to enter site okay? cheers!

the nice thing about holidays

fresh morning air with sunlight coming through the window without any tight schedules to worry about. isnt this great? well except for the gastric flu that im experiencing. im still fasting tho. its wierd because i told myself afew weeks before that im gonna fall sick. hope i will get well very soon so i can carry out my holidays plans which have been in a standstill for the last 2 days.. and oh ya, i tried on my brother's skinny jeans just now and it fits me nicely, tight and skinny of course. the size? 25. -.-

blue neon lights shall be brought upon your knees

picture this:

fast moving crowd in a bright city with cars moving so fast you could only see light streaks slithering. the drops of the rain adds to the slippery ground so dirty yet so metaphoric. the walls so cold that if it were to be you, you'ld be half dead hoping for hope. the sound of the surrounding hassles and commotions subconsciously tries to catch your attention but youre still in your own world. youre standing in a corner under a dim light thinking about home, to be accompanied, doesnt matter by who. you tried to stand still but you cant. youre just restless and too tired to be bothered about all that is happening around you. you got bored and light up a cigarette while thinking about your life and all those things that matters to you. your money, your family, your job, your clothings, your transport, your life. your reasons. live a living to live a life.

crap