return

Rico

mid 2005 - 30/1/2011

Put to sleep due to inability to eat, defecate, urinate, sit and stand.
Days passed and showed no signs of healing.
Verily we belong to God, and to God we return.

He was adopted from the vet. It was pretty hard at first as he cant run, cant even walk properly and as time passes, he even had problems standing up. But as time passes, he became a part of my family and we decided to look after him as he wont be able to survive in the wild. He'd be the one to greet you or greet back when you got home. He'd be the one to stick to anyone nearby and rub his head onto your knees as his saliva drips onto the floor while he purrs. A companion in the loneliest times.

I knew that we all would meet death one day. Its a cycle that every living thing goes through. I doing well but I'm not sure about my family members. Especially my mom. She's the only one who is always at home with Rico, being a housewife. We will definitely miss having a cat around.

to speak about the things we hate and love.

if my heart could speak right now,
i would have lost a number of friends.
maybe due to awkwardness or hatred
for what matters, truths may hurt.
i guess that's why we have a mouth
and a brain to be wisely used with.

but the temptation of spitting out how i really really feel about things and people around me is really really strong but i cant. i cant afford to risk to lose anything now because i treasure every single bit of it. its not all totally about negativity so dont get me wrong.

maybe its my dreams, the things that i aimed for in life. i was close to some of it but never really got it. and some even, were destroyed while im on it. the rest, it is still a mere image in my head. you can control the things that you want to do, but never what god gives you. every little thing is a blessing. if you cant see it, try believing in it. god please give me strength. amin.

give me your hand

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First try on HDR and TOTALLY LOVING IT! OH GOD IT FEELS GOOD TO BE EDITING AGAIN! You have no idea how happy I was working on this!

how love in silence become reprimand

Been busy with school. But all that I've ever kept track of so far was just on 2 modules and fyp. The other modules, well I guess I ought to spend time on it. In the midst of all these stuffs happening, I kindda miss spending time with my guitar, ukulele, camera, writing on my notebook, drawing on paper, long bus ride to school and home, and actually doing stuff that I really understand inside out while enjoying it.

On brighter note, TSTV started jamming again after a few months. It definitely hyped me up just like old times. Only this time, some of us kindda forgot some of TSTV's " greatest hits". ceh ceh greatest hits seh. Anyway I hope it wont be another few months before we book to jam again.

Few more weeks to end of school. Gotta push myself because I lost track of my school's performance this semester. I know I love you school for putting me through a lot of experiences be it good or bad. But I also want my free time ;)

some things are too painful to say out loud

I'm feeling better right now even though I'm still experiencing this little cough now. Well, I guess at least there's no fever, no flu and that the coughing isn't so bad. Aside from that, I'm lost on school right now. Yes, lets be honest, 4 or 5 weeks of holidays plus 2 week extension it pretty long isn't it? And now, my last stretch before I actually finish school by the end of February or something. Been very busy with FYP and I'm dead scared regarding my grades. Not that I've been fantastic but hey, I don't want to repeat any module!

I think I would like to invest on a handy audio recorder, to hook up to my camera and also maybe some home recordings. I'll then work on to become a Youtube or Myspace or Vimeo star or something hehehe. Right, as if I'm free enough.I don't even have the time to go on a date with my camera, or finish up 30 or prolly more movies that I have, or even cleaning up my room! But hey, it's still something that makes me all excited. Why wouldn't it? It involves audio, video, and production! Love it! But then again when it comes to my current needs, I'll need an extra battery pack and a faster memory card.

AND MONEY MONEY MONEY! I'll be having FYP presentation soon and I'll need a formal wear. Something I'll probably use during my graduation as well. Yet to ask my dad for money. Oh speaking of which, even though my dad don't actually encourage working at this age, I still feel bad asking for money :/ Then again, its not everyday that I ask for money from him :)

And later on! TSTV's finally gonna hit the studios again. By that I meant starting our weekly jamming sessions, not recording yet. eheh. GOD KNOWS its been soooo long since I sing out lyrics at high volume. Yes yes! The secret pleasure of screaming and singing your lungs and hearts out.