a fall from grace

by futuramafauzi

people come and people go. thats what we are. temporary existence in one's life. making me wonder if its even worth speaking to strangers. obtain its advantages and disadvantages for a short period of time that we might not even remember. i looked at myself in the mirror one evening. i see a young man. no longer considered a child. ive grown, changed and learned alot. negative, positive and those in between. now i wonder what is about to happen in the future. where will i lead myself. things used to be simple back then. sometimes i thought to myself that i shouldnt have started all this. being involved, meeting strangers, trying out something new. yes it is good that ive got experiences. but it just tires me out. and i wonder if its worth it. it not that im growing hatred overtime but i kept thinking. hopes that would only let us down. efforts that is unseemly fruitful. activities that kept us busy that we werent aware of other important people and stuffs.

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TSTV odiocrib 15nov

cock ups first while i can still remember. somebody broke the keyboard's adapter. its our keyboardist's debut and he cant play due to the adapter. high-hat making a nuisance. gadget making rusty sounds. songs less attractive and incomplete due to the lack of keyboard. we've practiced perfectly yet our songs ended up imperfect. damned aircon is useless. only our mates are watching, no one else. and they said they had a monitor in which they dont even take out for use.

a good side was lesson learned on the negative side of gigs. people were happy enough with the songs. and meet new people blah blah. i dont really feel the night being spent. i dont care if i would change how you think but really honestly i dont think 5 bucks spent on this kindda gig is worth it. in an environment like that, i think even animals deserves a better place. 5 bucks to you may mean nothing. to others, it may mean alot. not everyone is well off. and theres no outsiders. we're spreading the music to the same people all the time. theres no exposure. and its like calling in people to watch us do a normal jamming session. i think we should be moving on with other things. or perhaps take a break or something. and from lesson learned, for upcoming gigs, im gonna look at the place, organiser and invitations closely. sorry but you'll understand more when youre in this kindda thing.