I'm taking control.

"Wake up. Stop doing all those nonsense and get on with better things!" I told myself from time to time. And tonight, it seem to be the last of it. Its no more excuses for now. Or is it? Not because that I'm naive, but I cant keep my words even to myself. I've got a personal problem, one which dealt with one's own self. Wait no, I don't. But then again, I do.

I'm so bathed in regret right now that I'm starting to wonder how worthy am I. I've told myself from the end of every mistake that I've made up my mind to change for the better. Instead, mistakes kept coming back with no difficulties at all. Mistakes that is only mine to make. Mistakes that wont be the ones to make you feel great.

Like a car of hope cruising at top speed with its driver seated with delight ending up in a stop of less than one second by means of crashing onto a great wall, so great that every inch of the car hits the wall. Sometimes, I'd think that we are the devils, but that's what the devil would want us to think. Its a world of control. Both concious and subconsciously.

And guess what? Take note of today's date and no more "fuck it" this time. I'm taking control.

huh? what is school?

A friend of mine asked me about uni admission. We shared our gpa, then i thought about the other people regarding thier gpa as well.I think i better get really serious, control myself, and really aim to get the top position in class. SAHLAN + TOP POST = AM I DREAMING?! not to compete, but to pull grades up. get matured in this sense, really really work on it. wow. oh wow?

raye raye raye!

this was just the eve of raya. LOL. just now we played soccer with 7/+ agaisnt 7/+. I dont know why must i include that but hey, i think its been quite some time since we last played street soccer with that many people at one time. Now awaiting our outing, which will include more picture and hopefully vids. cheers!

feel good

meeting cousins, relatives, grandparents etc. its great. while learning about the family tree, their little history, who's who and stuffs.

but still, all i could remember were faces, not names. lol sadded for a while.

hehehe

i like!

lagu kt tepi x pyh tegor ey. haha